@Bow you're right, I have known you for years darlin. I also know that when it comes to complex trauma, five years is not unusual for things to get stuck. I know that I myself am still discovering aspects of my trauma that are gonna take years, maybe decades to heal from. But that's my path.
When it's taken years to dig the hole, it takes years to build the scaffolding to help us get back out. And sometimes we don't have enough materials, or we're working with faulty tools, or we need someone to hold something for us but no one is around. Sometimes bits break or fall off and we tumble back down again. But we are still always, always building.
Every day you survive is another notch on the belt of resilience, of hope, of a lesson to draw on another day. And even if you can only hammer in one nail today, or even if all you are doing is putting all your strength into holding up one of the beams so the whole thing doesn't collapse.... it all. still. counts.
