‎28-05-2024 04:53 PM
‎28-05-2024 04:53 PM
@Bow Mm I imagine it might be a tough session, if you're sitting in that space of not knowing how honest to be with your psych. But it could also end up being a super helpful session.
Your narrative creates your reality hun. If you believe things won't get better, then they won't... and sometimes we can even end up self-sabotaging without realising to keep our world in line with our narrative. We are both author and protagonist, and to me, that can be incredibly empowering.
I can answer your question honestly (which is that there is ALWAYS hope) but it won't be as powerful as you telling yourself that. You can even give it a go, right now, just gently say out loud to yourself, "I still have hope." It might feel uncomfortable, and your brain might immediately shut it down or protest it... but there's power in words, and even more power in words we say and hear from ourselves.
‎28-05-2024 06:02 PM
‎28-05-2024 06:02 PM
I’m scared I’m losing the battle
depression is a war
this constant relentless fight against yourself
every thought is a bullet
every movement is a punch
your constantly in pain from all the blows
but you keep fighting on
Depression is a murder
it killed that girl you once were
when I look in the mirror the reflection is unknown
depression is a nightmare
you wake each morning to your hell
The one your afraid of living in.
Depression is an ocean
your drowning and there is no one to save you
just keep swimming but your taking in more and more water.
depression is a bottomless pit
of never ending pain
or never ending torment and torture.
it really is never ending.
there is no escape
there is no light
depression is a beast
its gnarly teeth hissing at you
its loud growl that won’t quieten down
depression is too much
too overwhelming
captured by its strong grip
it won’t let me go
‎28-05-2024 06:23 PM
‎28-05-2024 06:23 PM
@Bow 🥺
Aww hun, sending you some huggles. And also highlighting your incredible writing talent. This hits hard.
I can hear how steep the spiral is feeling, and I'm pretty worried. I'll flick you an email hun.
‎28-05-2024 07:46 PM
‎28-05-2024 07:55 PM
‎28-05-2024 08:01 PM
‎28-05-2024 08:01 PM
Ok
thanks
just needing someone close by
have taken my meds though
‎28-05-2024 08:16 PM
‎28-05-2024 08:16 PM
Here with you hun! Sleepy time rapidly approaching then?
What did you end up watching on tv tonight, anything good @Bow?
‎28-05-2024 08:25 PM
‎28-05-2024 08:25 PM
Yeah rapidly approaching @Jynx
I watched home and away and neighbors. And then I’m watching the summit. Just crawled into bed to finish watching it.
was sitting on the couch huddles in a ball rocking back and forth, now in bed curled up in a ball doing the same. Feeling so fragile.
‎28-05-2024 08:35 PM
‎28-05-2024 08:35 PM
Oh wow those shows are still going @Bow? Hectic! I never watched em as a kid, never been into soap operas (unless they have magic or sci-fi in em lol). What's the summit?
Aww little ball of Bow, totally legit to feel very brittle right now. Rocking is totally a stim, and can 100% help with regulation, so rock away my friend. I like a good rock now n then too 💜
‎28-05-2024 08:42 PM
‎28-05-2024 08:42 PM
Yeah ashamedly I still watch them both @Jynx it’s my one hours of tv where I expect complete silence.
the summit- 14 aussies have a certain amount of days to reach the summit of. Mountain. They carry $1M, face challenges and risk getting kicked off
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